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[Friday September 2nd, 2005 at 4:47pm] [mood| irritated ] so im fucked up, i missed my fucking first class @ bucks and i cant find the email or number to my professor so i dont know i really really really dont want to drop the class but now i dont know what bookz or ne thing so we'll see how tuesday goez.... ugh this semester is already fucked up && its only the first week of classes, grr!! Jim called me yesterday and he was all depressed saying stupid stuff like hes gonna leave everyone and go far away to school and stuff and ii kept saying well what about me + he was like totally ignorin me or not respondin 2 it, soo fuck him.. he said he has stories for me and stuff and he'd call me later and tell me about them, i really just lost all hope in this relationship, hes just makin me so frustrated.. how can something be so perfect one day and than the next get fucked over?? what makes me laugh is i actually thought that this was the one guy for me, i gotta stop watching movies with a happy ending and wake up + realize that will never happen to me :o( {take it sl0w} ♥ 2 ♥ be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Thursday September 1st, 2005 at 1:05pm] [mood| happy ] so i didnt see Jim <8 @ all for the past week and ii kno he was home cuz he was on and offline so whatever i kinda figured him + ii are completely over by now.. i wish i knew why except for the obvious family reasons that happened last week, idk.. its just a weird story && i feel like im in a highschool relationship.. its really immature.. my classes start today @ 4 up in the perkasie campus, i know ill get lost but @ least i have brian to call if i do since he lives up there lol.. && i found a part-time job in doylestown @ a preschool so thats good, i have to sign the papers tomorrow to make it finialized or whatever.. sweetness ill have some cash im in such a fucking good mood today haha :o)~ be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Tuesday August 30th, 2005 at 7:43pm] [mood| nervous ] soo apparantly you're pissed @ me and i totally get it.. i dont know why you are and i could very well be overreacting but i dont know i assumed you didnt want to see or even talk to me and i know you were home all day because you were on and offline all day not saying much to me either.. i dont know what to do or say or what to even feel right now. i love you so much and if i did somethin wrong id really like to know so i can apoligize.. i really needed you yesterday because i had a REALLY scary night, i just wanted you to make me smile so i could forget about everything like i usually do when you call me or kiss me, its like im in a world that only you + me are in and everyone else just disappears and im so scared to lose that because your so important in my life.. i start school on thurs. and idk i just miss you so much baby, plz dont do this, dont act all weird after ive fallen so fucking hard for you.. you tell me you love me sooo much and NOTHING will ever change that && everything, so ill keep that in my mind and ill keep it close to my heart and hope that your not trying to take me out of your world because the truth is i need you so much now more than ever and im madly in love with you, so dont push me away when things get difficult baby :o( be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Monday August 29th, 2005 at 12:38pm] [mood| sad ] :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( sometimez you make me so fuckin sad!!!!!!!!!! 1st u say you miss me sooo fuckin much + cant wait to see me and how you need to see me more than once a week and than you tell me you have plans all fuckin week this week WTF grr i miss you so much, you have no idea.. sometimez i wish i understood you more and i wish u didnt push me away :o( be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Tuesday August 23rd, 2005 at 12:45pm] [mood| hyper ] wow i havent written in here in awhile lol.. everythings goin good and all.. dennise and i have been total camera wh0res haha i have like over 200 pictures of us.. not to mention the CRAZIIINESS... LoL sOo sean apolized so we are friendz again which is totally cool.. masons been telling me gab wants to get together but i doubt we will ever be friendz again, i just cant deal wit the drama.. and for some reason im afraid shes gonna split dennise and i'z friendship up because she somehow made everyone else hate me idk how it happened and im really sick of it.. so why would i want someone like that back into my life??? id have to be an idiot which i am in other ways lol but not in this way well in every other way prolly hahaha nah.. well alli and dennise and me are princesses so its all good :o) I LOVE U GIRLZ {take it sl0w} ♥ 1 ♥ be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Wednesday August 17th, 2005 at 1:17pm] [mood| Thankful ] todays Jims birthday, he came over yesterday -- i went to pick him up and i got totally lost like a zillion timez.. i dont know my way around there l0l! he was laughin @ me but i got him a nfl jets shirt, hat, cup, some pendent thingys and a spongebob guy that you can throw around and it talks heh <8 he said i did a great job lol yay =)) im so fucking happy with him!!!!!!! now im tryin to fucking fix my freaking cd burner haha and its not working be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Monday August 15th, 2005 at 12:40pm] [mood| weird ] ppl really fucking piss me off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Friday August 12th, 2005 at 9:34am] [mood| excited ] soo I'm on cloud 9.. haha the other niite i met this guy and he is so funny, we totally hit it off but ii was thinking ohh this is going to be another one of those relationships that NEVER EVER works or ii thought he was gonna be one of those assholes that says he loves me but really doesn't.. idk i guess ive just been hurt a lot soo its hard to except the fact that my ex broke up with me and than hit on my best friend, it was nasty and even tho i didnt like t0ny as much as i thought i did its still dirty and grimy that he betrayed me like that, but when im with Jim♥ its like none of that existed, like i realize how much i didnt care about t0ny and we would of never worked out and i dont know why i didnt see it.. jim treats me like im a piece of glass or a precious gem and he wants to protect me and not let me break or anything, its kinda weird and corny for saying that but i can honestly say ii am totally happy with him and its scary because i fell so fast and i dont wanna get in so deep and get hurt but i really dont thiink i will cuz he tells me how much he loves me every second and how he completely will do anything to be with me... its so cute lol ♥ xtina came over last niight and we talked about everything hehe it was fun haha!! girl bonding tiime woot woot!!!!! i miss dennise i can*t wait to see her tonight and im gonna get my nail fixed and my eyebrows waxed asa i get outta the shower!!!! <8 haha soo ill prolly wrote more lata Jim*z down the shore all weekend, ii miss him :o( lol ♥ {take it sl0w} ♥ 1 ♥ be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Sunday August 7th, 2005 at 12:02am] [mood| cold ] tonight i hung out wiit my gurl dennise!! we had so much fun together just chillen and do basically nothin, and we didnt waste money =)) we got this too cute lil beeper friend things omg they are purple and pink and they RAWK haha!!! alli + xtina would b the only ones to appreciate the cute sweet corny thingz we love hehe, we are dorks but you love it!!! =p soo yea im gonna join a hip hop dance class because it sounds soo much fun and than get extentions in my hair and get cute highlights.. dennise + i are goin job hunting on monday and we're gonna stop @ a bunch of hair salons and see how much its gonna be and stuff.. <8 I saw Jay on the way droppin dennise off haha it was so weird so i stopped and gave him a hug and talk for a bit, he said hez been tryin to get ahold of me to get together lol sweetness.. I'm so tired but I have a really bad headache hmm idk how i got it lolz.. prolly from all the perverted sex crazed maniacs that exist in this w0rld.. yuck ♥ well im gonna go love ya'z {take it sl0w} ♥ 2 ♥ be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Friday August 5th, 2005 at 1:15pm] [mood| hungry ] so i just came to fiind that there are decent guys that are hot and sweet, wow im so amazed riight now, i always thought the hot ones were assholes ♥ be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Monday August 1st, 2005 at 11:18am] [mood| silly ] 1---» What's ur name? Jacky 2---» Age? 25 3---» Eye color? Dark Brown 4---» Hair color? Dark Brown with Redish Highlights 5---» Height? 5'9ish 6---» How many siblings? 0 7---» If you have any, do u actually like them? *~~* 8---» How many sibs do u wish u had? @ least a little bro or sis 9---» Do u like ur mom and dad? Yes 10---» Does ur family like you? Yes ♥ School, Teachers, and all that stuff that we love to hate ♥ 11---» What school do u go to? BCCC 12---» Do u actually like it? Yeah I love learning new things 13---» Who's ur best teacher? Fendernand 14---» Who's ur worst? Green 15---» Do u remember ur kindergarten teacher? Yes 16---» Have u ever written on walls, desks, lockers, bathrooms at your school? Yes in highschool I did 17---» Did u get caught? Nahh 18---» Who is the hottest teacher? 0 19---» Who is the ugliest teacher? All of them lol 20---» If you had to stay in ur grade for the rest of ur life, what would u say? I wouldn't mind @ all, I actually love college and once I graduate this year I'm going to be fufilling my dreams so it all works out 21---» Do ur teachers like u? I guess 22---» Are u a suckup? Nahh 23---» Pack lunch or buy? Buy 24---» Ever got yelled at by a lunch lady? Ummmmm no?? Lol 25---» What's ur favorite subject? Psychology 26---» What's ur worst subject? Anything having to do with Math ♥ TV, Music, AIM, and all that good stuff ♥ 27---» How long do u usually watch TV? A lot in the Winter -- futurama, family guy, simpsons, EAGLES, dawsons creek in the morings on tbs haha... 28---» Do u have ur own TV? Yeah 29---» What's the best show? DAWSONS CREEK 30---» What's the dumbest? Minding the store, its so dumb 31---» Gilmore Girls or Friends? Gilmore Girls 32---» Ashlee Simpson or Lindsay Lohan? Ashlee Simpson 33---» Britney Spears or Jessica Simpson? JESSICA SIMPSON!!! 34---» Punk'd or Room Raiders? Punk'd 35---» Do u have a s/n? Yes 36---» How many? 2 37---» How many people are on on ur buddy list? 45 38---» How many people are blocked? 0 39---» What is the best s/n on ur buddy list? idk 40---» Who is the hottest person on ur buddy list? Dennise, Xtina, Alli + Me Lol 41---» Do u go in chatrooms? Yeah 42---» Do u cyber? No 43---» Would that be cheating on a bf/gf? Yeah ♥ Random, Random, Random ♥ 44---» Believe in cloning? I think for health purposes its a good thing but I think if someones gonna clone thierselves than its just dumb lol 45---» Believe in gay/lesbian marriage? I guess 46---» R u straight, bisexual, gay, lesbian? Straight 47---» You or me? You 48---» What's ur favorite name? Nicholas or Isabella 49---» Who is the person you can't stand the most? Lol no comment 50---» Do ur parents look at ur Xanga site? If I show them it 51---» Long or short? Long 52---» Big or small? Big 53---» Happy or loved? Happy 54---» Run or bike? Run 55---» Who is the person u can talk to the most? Dennise, Xtina or Alli 56---» Do u play an instrument? Yes 57---» If so, what is it? Piano, Violin, Flute 58---» Do u actually practice? Yeah 59---» What are u wearing? Blue PJ bottoms and a silky white PJ top lol 60---» R u gonna go to ur prom? Umm no since it already passed a long time ago lol ♥ Love, Friends, and all the things that make us laugh and cry ♥ 61---» Single or taken? siingle =( 62---» If ur taken, what's his/her name? *~~* 63---» Where'd u meet? *~~* 64---» How long have u been going out? *~~* 65---» How many people have u gone out w/? omg I don't remember, its been a lot 66---» How many do u regret? just one 67---» Do ur parents like all ur b/fs and/or g/fs? No 68---» When do u want to get married? One day 69---» Want any kids? YES 70---» Who is ur loudest friend? I think Im the loudest one 71---» Blondest friend? Alli 72---» Coolest friend? Dennise, Alli and Xtina 73---» Weirdest friend? 0 74---» Most dramatic friend? Alli 75---» Most likely to beatin some1 up? Dennise or Xtina Lol 76---» Prettiest friend? Dennise, Alli and Xtina 77---» Most likely to love Barney still? Ummm no one!! Lol ♥ Are you...... ♥ 78---» Happy? Yeah 79---» Sad? No 80---» Disgusted? Yeah 81---» Hot? Of Course 82---» A blond? Yeah @ heart Lol 83---» Smart? Yes 84---» Popular? Yes 85---» Dorky? Yes 86---» Athletic? Sorta 87---» Ready? Lets go 88---» Wanting to lose weight? I guess 89---» Crushing? On a lot of ppl right now Lol 90---» Weird? ALWAYS ♥ The next word u think of.... ♥ 91---» Baloney? EWWWW 92---» George W. Bush? Nice Guy 93---» Mustard? Pretzels 94---» Cheese? Swiss 95---» Ashton Kutcher? Funny 96---» School? Grades 97---» MTV? Music or Pimp my ride 98---» Candy? Land 99---» Love? Heartbreak or Cheaters/Liars ** 100---» Did u like the quiz? it was cute! be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Saturday July 30th, 2005 at 11:27pm] [mood| happy ] awww ii met a lot of boyz in the past few days and i dont know which one i want grrrrrrrr... dennise told me tony imed her + was hitting on her what a loser, i am so glad i didnt go any further in that relationship, im kinda glad that it got fucked up i mean he knows shes my best friend so what kinda scrub would do that, ewww it really grosses me out lol.. last night was cool i hung out with xtina + dennise and we drove around the boulevard and all these guys were hitting on us hahaha it was hilarious... im headed to south phiilly tomorrow, ii hurt my foot for some reason its killin me lol.. sweet dreams! be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Thursday July 28th, 2005 at 1:16pm] [mood| Worried ] why does this alwayz happen to me, grrrr! so dennise is lost, somehow sean got caseys sn and he imed her looking for her last night and she sent me the whole conversation and all and somehow dennise left with her bags packed in a silver car, whatever that means.. apparantly she got kicked out of her house, i tried calling the house but there was no answer last night and im gonna call her house in a minute now and see if shes there otherwise i know she would contact me if she needed me.. im sure shes fine idk maybe she went to florida or something but hopefully ill hear from her soon... and i hope shes safe... other than that why the fuck are guys such assholes =/ be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Wednesday July 27th, 2005 at 11:13am] [mood| grumpy ] wow //*+*i.n.t.e.r.e.s.t.i.n.g*// i've never felt like i'm feeling right now and its scarying me :( be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Tuesday July 26th, 2005 at 12:43pm] [mood| anxious ] so 2day is chillen.. i talked to this boi *joshh* on the phone last niight, omgg he is one hilarious mother fucka haha i was laughing so hard it was crazy, i liike a guy that can make me laugh... so idk whatz goin on tonight =)) but i wanna clean my car siince itz totally insanely dirty lol!!! and i still have to get one of my nails fixed siince it looks kinda weird and noticable lol.. dennise got a tat so i soo have to see it tonight, im excited lol <8 awwww i wish i could get a tat hehe =)) so today is the first time ive been so incredibly happy in about a month, i just didn't realize how a persons mood that you're close to can effect you in more ways than one, its really crazy and i*m totally over it riight n0w.. well im gonna go and finish doin some thingz around the crib.. oOo i listened to a new type of music lol thankx to josh haha =)) ill wriite more later on be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Monday July 25th, 2005 at 10:51am] [mood| hopeful ] so yesterday was insane, I went to chiill wit jay and some ppl in d-t0wn and everyone was drunk when i g0t there hahahaha it was funny because some guy was @ muggs and he kept telling jay that i was cute and i was just smiling so we left and went to his house and this was like at 4pm and it was so weird because i never go to d-t0wn that early but anyway jenn wanted pretzels so we went to get her some and follow this kid ben that i 0nly met like once but he was kinda hot so i didnt miind following him haha so anyway apparantly we were supposed to go to bens house cuz thats where everyone was chillen or somethiing soOo we went and acted crazy and they threw some kiid steve in the pool and that was sooooo funny hahaha but than the cute guy was liike friends with ben and he knows him and his name*z miike!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was so weird, so idk hehe =)) so than i came home and i was talkin to tj <3 online like all day + dennise and i [SINCE WE WERE GOING THRU WITHDRAWL BECAUSE WE DIDNT SEE EACH OTHER FOR LIKE 320560360500 YEARS OR MAYBE IT WAS A WEEK] we decided to go on a road trip to west chester to visit him so we ended up getting lost in delaware and i dont know how we ended up doin that one hahaha i was so funny, we were lost and dennise and i are like laughing and jumping all ar0und bein our crazy selfz :o) I LOVE YOU!!! so we finally get to west chester and omgg there are soooo many hott guys in west chester and thats all im g0nna say about last night ;) Dennise I love you................. ---------------------->>>> ( Read more... ) be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Saturday July 23rd, 2005 at 9:59pm] [mood| sad ] :o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o(:o( so tony broke up with me, fuck him, si la vie lol or however you spell it, so any nice decent normal guys?????????? be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Friday July 22nd, 2005 at 12:59pm] [mood| Refreshed ] What day is it And in what month This clock never seemed so alive I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time Cause it's you and me and all of the people Nothing to do, nothing to lose And it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you All of the things that I want to say Just aren't coming out right I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning I don't know where to go from here Cause it's you and me and all of the people With nothing to do, nothing to prove And it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Friday July 22nd, 2005 at 11:44am] [mood| satisfied ] so since i love making icons i made my own community lol >> *iC0N w0RLD* cLiX hErE 2 SeE iT!! woot!! <8 yay its friday im so excited hehe :o) be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

[Thursday July 21st, 2005 at 10:36pm] [mood| lonely ] wiith my bf <8 loll! well im gettin real tiired so im headed to bed bitches ill prolly wake up early and get online @ like 4am.. haha =)) im kinda mad at someone right now lol REALLY MAD actually but whatever.. be wiit you day + niight *ALL I NEED IZ TIME*

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